This is serious, this is me.

I am tired of people thinking life can be two sided. Emotions can be split, and lifestyles can be intermixed.
No, they can't.
I have a beautiful eight month old son, who I love with all my heart. I chose this lifestyle, I may not have chosen to get pregnant, but I chose to put family first.
I chose to be married, and put Gods path over my own. I don't expect some to understand or agree with this, but it's a personal strength that can't be lived without.
Are you wondering where I am going with this?
I don't believe partying and family mix. I don't believe doing wrong and doing right will mix.
I love my family and friends and lifestyle, and NO I don't want to party. It's immature, wrong and pointless.
If you're wondering why I am writing this in a blog it's because I don't have the heart to say this in public.
I love you guys, but I can't do the party scene. I have a kid and a husband.. and even if I wanted to party ( which I don't ), it's just not OK for one who has responsibilities. Hudson is like a sponge, he absorbs everything I say and do. They other day I said mama over 50 times, and then I recorded it.. when we were watching the movie together he kept giggling and then said " maaomm".
I want people to respect me as a person. I want Hudson to grow up and say that his Mom was the best and was always there for him. That I taught him right from wrong.
Partying is not something that I am sad I can't do. It's something I have no desire to do. Even the thought of that lifestyle makes me feel sad for those in it.

This is not to say that I don't drink wine, or coolers.. but casually, and never to get drunk.
I'm sorry if this sounds super stuck up, but it's just something I believe very strongly in.

Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a super Thanksgiving!!
xo